I would like to SHARE...

Yesterday, in Dido, I shared a bit...about my personal life. Probably some of the most "personal" things ever. In fact, I was the only one realli who had anything to share. Fr once, I hogged the shar-ing floor. But no one else had anything to say...so i jus went ahead. Other wise, i wud've stepped down a bit lol

I wanna thank Joie, fr such wrds of encouragement. I don’t mind putting it up…hope she doesn’t either.

"hey (:

thanks for sharing yesterday at dido!

just wanted to tell you that you're NOT stupid~God loves you SO SO SO much,even when you don't believe it. maybe you feel as if He created you by mistake, but He didn't (:

everyone isn't perfection, and it's about recognizing your flaws and trying to change them / accepting thembecause they make you who you are - truly unique! I often feel inadequate because It's hard for me to put how I'm feeling in words,so I feel like I can't express myself very well -therefore, it's difficult for me to open up in front of others (which is why I'm emailing you now cause it's just easier for me to talk hehe :p ) .

SO, Focus on the gifts that He has given you. I don't know you that well - but i know he's gifted you with the incredible talent for music! Not everyone has something as special as that like you.

Everyone doubts God once in a while, even strong Christians - how can you NOT doubt somethingthat's intangable.

I struggle very often myself with doubt, like I don't see him working in my life as he is with everyone elsebut sometimes I realize, maybe it's right in front of myand I'm just not looking hard enough.

but anyways, i was doing devos this morning,reading 1 Peter and I came across this verse. not sure it's too relevant, but:

6In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

So basically, although you endure trialsmaking you feel stupid & not pefect,you're put through these trialsto become closer to God. Next time you're in one of those situations,try to loook through a different perspective.Try to see how God is trying to work through youin the long run

~ I know you said you don't want to talk to God then,but if you're feeling THAT low, like you have nothign else to turn to -why not just give a chance to God.Minus well give it a shot, since everything else isn't workingahh, i don't even know what I'm talking about anymore.well i kinda do, but i don't know how to say ithopefully you understand vaguely what my unsuccessful attempt of advice is saying xD

Whenever you're feeling stupid,remind yourself that whatever you're enduringis just part of your journey to becomewho you are / contributing to your identity.To me, the key to successis that when you believe in yourself,you can do anything!! As cliche as that sounds,your true potential is unleashed because you are confidentin your own abilities.Your sucess will push you to be the best that you can be (:

Remeber to be patient, because everything works in His time.I guess I'll end this off with one of my favorite verses. Actually, Zara gave it to me when I first opened upabout my spiritual life at Winter Retreat this year.

Isaiah 40:28

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

It's not that relevant to your situationbut it's a nice verse to have with you (:sorry if my advice wasn't very goodi'm not that good at giving advice lollyou've probably heard these thingsover and over again - but there true!have a good week & i'll pray for you!

- joie"

you too are gifted Joie...nd it's the gift of comforting others=) Tht's an amazing gift God has given you. I notice u don't talk or open up too much during cell group sharings nd stuff...

But you definitely don't have a problem with expressing yourself...lol, actually i have tht same problem, nd i wus gonna share bout tht...if we didn't go ubber over-time lol. I too need to express myself through emails, cuse believe it or not, i suck at expressing myself verbally too; although it try lol.

I wanna thnx u so much for listening....nd those words of encouragement. They really did...give me another perspective to look at things, nd brightened up my day! It was great to be reminded...through those passages, nd through ur wrds.

Great ur doing devos!...i too struggle with tht. Nd i believe tht it really DOES help in your everyday life. Like, you feel a lot better, and in a more cheerful attitude, cuse u know ur doing everything for God.

Thnx for praying for me.

Your support & care alone (whether good advice or bad)...already gives me strength and encouragement to hang on to my faith. I no that God is working through ppl like you....to keep me accountable, and lift me up when i am down.

So i want to THANK YOU sooo much once again!! Thnx for sharing your devos with me. Like Bernard said, it really does lift the spirit of one who is down. Definitely great advice=)

you should share mre!

-Conan Yu=)

During the nite, I wud've had a LOT mre to share...but some topics i was hoping to touch upon were:

Talked bout:

- Times when u feel stupid & dumb, u wonder why God ever created you. Why He would even allow something like tht to happen. If there really WAS a God, y would He do this. Tht wus one of the sources of my doubt. I believed if God did exist, He wouldn't create someone as stupid & dumb like me.

-If God can create things that are so beautiful (not gonna go into any specifics), how much mre "beautiful" is the creator? He is the "beautiful One".

- Why'd God give us desires (ex. desire fr women), if it causes us to sin. He created us with hormones, tht stimulate tht desire, so it feels natural.

Didn't talk about:

- U no how ppl always say "Let God speak through u...", it doesn't happen. Even when I ask for it. Sometimes, I wonder wut it is...am i not praying earnestly enough?

-I get the most angry, nd doubtful bout God's existence when i get frustrated over sumthin...nd feel handicapped or uncapable.

- Don't know how to discuss with non-christians, the "relevance" of christianity. I often don't know how to answer questions like: "Why does God let ____ happen...if there even is one." Always "WHY" questions. Find those the most challenging. Also, it's hard to tell those ppl about Christ when they think it's BS.

- self-consciousness

-Haven't done devos lately. Busy-ness. How to overcome that?

-half the time I don't believe, is because it FEELS as if He does not answer prayers. (But GAP [God answers prayers], many times) Ex. I ask God for confidence...i didn't get it.

- I would be happy if i could jus act normal...why can't God help me do tht?

- the ability to share. (also, i studder crazily). I am sorta handicapped in tht aspect.

- Why am i conscious of myself, and how other ppl like at myself. When all tht really matters...is how God looks at me. Everyone else is really nothin but creations, from the creator. Which matters more.

I'll stop there. LOL

the reason im sharing this....is tht I'm SURE ppl go through some of this (which was evident from yesterday), nd I learned how valuable it is to share my experience with others, so that they TOO may learn from it.

I sent an email bout it too.