I've thought about this a lot...nd im not gonna deny it anymore. I want to go to the ENGLISH side, NOT the chinese side. Where do i wanna get baptised?...probably in the english side. Since I already wrote, or planned out my testimony in english LOL. Not sure if ppl in the Chinese side wanna hear a testimony in English. (I have a feeling my dad might make me translate it though, or He wud do it). nd +, to be baptized, is to witness to other ppl that you are A FOLLOWER of God. umm I want my friends to be there! Ppl who've seen me spiritually grow, mature and experience God's work through this church. Nd if i get baptized in the chinese side, there are also most likely going to be baptisms in the english side too. Is it necessary for ppl to have this conflict? choosing which baptism they wanna go to (which is most likely gonna be in eng side, since I'm like the only one in the chi. side). It's really hard to back down now. Maybe I should talk to my dad a bit more about this.
Btw, Just to put it out there, my Dad's a cool guy, He wants what's best for me. Nd we're pretty chillz with each other. At times, we could be friends (which is very often actually). My dad, (unlike most dads, iunno?) really likes to talk to me. And I'm a son, who doesn't mind listening (most often). So sometimes, we can jus keep goin on forever...and I never get to do my Hw. But yea, we do devos sometimes together, which is a great thing (I think).
Well k, some of the reasons I'm still in the Chinese side, is because:
1) I wanna respect my parents, (or at least give them a better impression so that they dun have to worry soo much, since i've already been such a rebel whenever they're not around)
2) Don't wanna ditch my dad, He doesn't have many friends over there. (I'm his friend). No offense.
3) I have this other friend in the chinese side that sits with me. Her name is Corinne, so i dun wanna ditch her either. In fact, I encouraged her to come with me to the english side too. But she has her reasons, why she's not able to.
Ever since my dad came back, everything's been back to normal. Even though, it was only two weeks, tht i attended the english side (since he was gone); it felt like a DRASTIC new change having to go back to the chinese side again. It's like i was already accustomed to going to the eng side. Give me patience...
Everytime I come on Sunday, I just "feel" like i have to go to the english side, nd then i rmb, oh crapp, i usually go to the chinese side. I wasn't really use to the "change back".
BUT u no, i've come to a conclusion, It really doesn't matter which side I attend. Different buildings...same God. Same Family. Choosing what language is jus a minor thing (but ofc, u need to understand wut they're saying)...the prime focus is God. He's the center of it all.
But one thing is proven to be true, i do get distracted very easily...sometimes i zone out/sleep in the chinese side; but I also get distracted in the english side. So, should i zone out/sleep in the chinese side, or talk to friends in the english side? lol. As u can see, both choices are kinda negative. But tht's really up to me...whether i let tht stuff happen.
I've been missing english Sunday School lately...I will wake up earlier.
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