A Living Prayer...

In this world...I walk alone.

With no place...to call my home.

But there's one...who holds my hand.

The rugged road...through barren lands.



The way is dark...the road is steep.

But He's become...my eyes to see.

The strength to climb...my griefs to bear.

The savior lives...inside me there.



In Your love...I find release.

A haven from...my unbelief

Take my life...and let me be,

A living Prayer...my God to thee.



beautiful song...not very often do combinations of lyrics + instrumentals attract me at the same time. The first time I heard it was at JMC. But i don't think you will be able to find the original recording on youtube, cuse i couldn't. Quality's not as great.

On my mind...

-Summer Camp was...great. No, amazing. No, sumthin, I won't be forgeting...ever. Outwardly, I might not have expressed it as clearly, but I had a good time alright. Whether rain or shine. 3 days or 4 days. I was able to enjoy myself...with the rest of the fellowship.

-intense sharing at Summer camp Bible study. I personally experienced God's mercy and compassion during that time.

-I'm gonna start listening. Not just listening to only wut i wanna listen to.

-Summer school is over...in TWO days. YEEeeee

-"Understanding comes only when one too experiences that of another, correct?"

Summer tunes...

Sometimes Life...it knocks you down (knocks you down)



It knocks you down,



but you get back up,



and then it knocks you down.




But with love ( ♪of God♫), ain't gonna knock you down,


Cuse when life knocks down,


He just picks you back up,


when it knocks you down, knocks you down.











"I like the rain, (THE RAIN!)"
"but sunshine is great"
"I like the thunder (THE THUNDER)"
"But nothing can take,
"The sweet love of God from us."



(Perfect camp songs...good times guys)

The Battlefield

I'm on a battlefield...a battlefield...a battlefield.

Why does life always feel like a battlefield.



"Why are you so good at starting wars.

I never ever even hurt you-ou.

Don't think you even know why you're fighting.

Why does life always feel like a battlefield."






Sometimes...even the tongue...can be surprisingly hard to control.

-Conan Yu

A lil bout me...a lil of my perpective

One downside about my social skills, is that I'm bad with comebacks. Which usually translates into "looking stupid".

When i say "comebacks", i don't really mean countering diss's, but more like responding to a comment. I always tend to say sumthin stupid.

But the upside, is I don't know how to diss ppl either, so therefore, I don't often offend ppl much (ok, maybe not true) but ppl definitely think ur a nicer person when you don't always go around dissing ppl up. But again, those ppl are the ones that make it "live" and fun.

But i found that either way, loud or quiet, stupid or smart comments, ugly or not (lol); I've always been treated the same (despite all the awkward comments I make). Always been accepted and loved for who I am.

Cuse God loves all, and I see that displayed through all my brothers and sisters, they don't care whenever i say sumthin stupid (which may not seem true, at the time), but deep down...i no im still loved lol. Which is ultimately reflected from God's love. Really just givin back what God gave them.

We love, because we were first loved.

Sumthin else...

My parents aren't too happy...

with my "soon to be" roomate either...

How should I settle this?

Pressure. On me. Is Intense.

Why does he gotta always put me in those situations.

It's a win-lose situation...for either one.

Either way...somebody gonna get the hurt...real bad.



Why all the emotions? Why am I always involved?

When...freedom...i seek thee.

Now...my parents are tellin me i shouldn't have joined softball in the first place.

Right now, in total...let see:
I've gone to ONE game (out of 7 or 8?), and have attended TWO practices (out of who knows how many).

I mean...summer skool, just killed it for me. The last yr i get to join softball (or mebbe not actually)...but i wanted to be a little more committed this year for everything in general as it IS my last year.

When I don't go to practices, my parents use that excuse for me not to go to GAMES either. "If you don't even spend the time to practice, how would it make sense for you to go to the games?? You'll just be letting the team down. Just like last time, how you kicked the guy in the face...see, tht's the stuff that happens."

Exactly, none of those statements make sense. It's not even related. Don't get how so many random comments can combine into sumthin like tht.

and other crap like tht...that place a restriction between me nd softball & even a lot of OTHER activities.

(I'm just being completely true and honest bout the way i feel at the moment.)

Who?...

...Who'z goina keep me accountable, while I'm at UOIT?

Who'z gonna keep me up on track, in a totally new environment?

Am i goin to join their fellowship when I'm there?

How is my spiritual walk like...in the future?

I'm excited, and worried at the same time. Mixed with a lotta "other" mixed feelings.

don't really know what to feel.

A sudden thought that has occured to me.

Back to Blog #1...

I've just realized...I've been a studd-er-er and someone's whoz unable to talk properly ever since I first started this blog (which is about...ONE yr ago, doesn't date back too long).

Cuse I was asking for guidance to speak properly...eloquently, on my very first blogger post!

I wonder how much i improved.

But yea, today i decided to start from the beginning of my blog and re-read everything. (Everyone does that at some point.)

I've seen how much I've grown, along with other people through...i guess...ONE WHOLE YEAR lol.

I probably have more to reflect on, but imma leave it there for now.

Bloggin Again...!

After a longgg breakk from my blogspot, I've finally found the time...& peace to start blogging again.

My 3 points...

Three points (as a christian):

1) Be: Different (imma borrow tht Brian, thnx)

How else do ppl notice you? When u stand out. When you're different from every other; but ofc not in a bad way. If ur just like everyone else, if you conform to the world just like the rest of it; what's so special about tht? You're just like any one of them. A follower. But if you live out a different life, one of Christ's (altho I'm still working on that, cuse nobody can BE Christ, we can only strive towards it). Ppl notice. And conversations about church & christianity will come a lot easier, since ppl will start to realize and ask. It's also a lot easier for YOURSELF when you want to bring the topic up, since your identity allows your convos to flow more comfortably. It'd be a lot harder if you set a bad witness/example...nd ppl WILL question you, but not the way you'd probably want it.

In my perspective, Ppl want to go for sumthin "unique" or "special", that'll also contribute "positively" at the same time.

Why would anyone want to be a "someone" u can find anywhere around.

I Quote:

"I wanna be just like you...and all the other christians out there. How r u guys always so happy and cheerful all the time?"

"How come you are just as happy, even when you fail in life?" (kind of a diss...but i shook it off lol)

2) Show you care, Encourage, Have a sense of humor, Don't give in/give up.

one thing i often try to do (or NOT to do): is let ppl see me get angry


3) And rmb why ur doing this.

Cuse you wanna save them. You love them. Just like how God loved us. And He loved each and every one of his creations.

You want them to enjoy the gift, jus like we can. We wanna save as much of God's children as possible. THAT's why we do...what we do.

It is NOT to our benefit. What do we ever get out of sumthin like tht.

It's all...

It's all an illusion.

Nd basically, u ARE the creator of that illusion.

What you believe, is what you get.

I was told...

I was told...tht I'm someone who can't move on.

But i don't even have an answer yet...and I'm told to MOVE ON??..

the second i get my answer...I would Gladly be happy to "move on".

nd some "body" is making this "search" for an answer more than just a challenge.



I thought i would be seen as someone loyal. Someone faithful. Not someone who can't move on.

Sometimes, you gotta just...

Learn to accept yourself.

Then worry about accepting others.

Altho they're both pretty important.



"The biggest source of criticism is from yourself"

-Billie Leung (or at least tht's my source)

Lonesome...

Once again, bored by my lonesome self...

I could be going out there and experiencing SO much out there. I could learn, fellowship, and interact out there...and much more ways to experience God's love and God's work and God's adventures. All tht fun stuff...it's always fun, to serve.

plz Lord, if You're there and listening (which ofc i no You are)...kill my boredomness lol. Show me all the opportunities. I wanna talk.

I feel better alreadi...knowing I got someone to talk to. I'm glad I always have at least a friend.

Btw, for those who are wondering, I'm imprisoned at home rite now...unable, or "unallowed" realli, to do anything else except for summer skool stuff. I can't wait for it to be over. But always, I'll have some one to talk to..."isn't that right!".

I may be deprived of "friends to talk to", but I'll never be taken away from the One who's always willing to listen. Mann, and this blog is a pretty nice place get some of tht stuff out i wanna say sometimes. It's a good place to do that.

I feel really anti-social rite now (hope i used that rite)....just hope I'm never anti-social with God.

Don't matter...

It doesn't really matter who your with realli...

as long as your willing to spend that time with someone...bonds will get "tighter", and relationships will grow "stronger". No matter what.

I feel I learned tht today.

I'm more stressed than when I was in skool...summer doesn't feel like it started yet.