Why is it that some of the most reasonable and appropriate requests that I ask of God, aren't granted to me (I found lately)? I used to believe that maybe it wus my intentions or maybe He jus hadn't answered it yet....an example, i ask fr simple stuff like to be able to have "confidence", nd "wisdom" and 'courage" when i talk to ppl (esp. non-christians). Like...for most ppl who don't know me, I'm someone who has 'zero' confidence in speaking to people...anyone really. Nd I've been asking God for that "strength" nd guts to be able to do that fr the longest time...nd nothings happened, from wut i've observed. I didn't feel one bit changed by God...into someone who could do his works at a better level. I've already put my part of the "effort" into it. But during those times (i guess not all times), I don't feel God helping me the rest of the way. I always want to truly experience God working through me, but iunno, most of the time...i haven't been feeling it. I realli wanna find out why. I want to be like those disciples of Jesus, who were "filled with the Holy Spirit" before Jesus left them to do His work.

So yea, jus a prayer item,if u guys could pray for me...for Confidence! in speaking to ppl i might not be too comfortable speaking with; about topics i may not be too comfortable talking about.