What a morning...

I almost...almost...missed my exam. If it weren't for someone...or some thing. Cuse i shut my alarm clock off, tht wus suppose to wake me up....wud've jus easily overslept.

I have concluded that...I AM TIRED. Wut could i expect out of 3hrs of sleep. I thot i was awake...thought wrong lol.

froze during the exam...everythin i studied i know, was on the test...my brain jus wasn't functioning properly. At some point, i think i forgot how to press the inverse trig function on my calculator. And i jus felt like, i was jus sitting there...staring at the paper the whole time. Don't think i was using my time productively.

Also, before i went in to do this exam, I had Tim Hortons coffee and water, first time experience ever, doin tht in the morning.

Bad choice...Had massive diarrea, and ppl around me were like wtheck, cuse i had this weird look on my face. Like i was in pain, and constipated...i guess, u guys didn't really need to know all tht. But jus recording down events of today=P

omgoodness...y can't i sleep...-_-, i am SOoo sleepy, but i CAN't SLEEP. Wut is this...

I was suppose to sleep at 9:00pm (to wake up for an exam that's 7:00am tmr), but i ended up rolling in my bed...for 5 fricken hours! -_-, and here i am...back on my laptop.

Well, i have 6 hrs, no 5 hrs now...great.

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Well, now that I'm up, I read 1 Corinthians 1:1.

A few quotes that caught my eye were:

"God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong." (1 Corinthians 1:27)

I'm like whoaa, I'm pretty...foolish, i would say 0_o, nd weak...nd many aspects, lol. But ofc, tht's not the point.

"For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom,, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength." (1 Corinthians 1:25)

0.o God has weaknesses....? (tht's the thot tht came to mind), but i dun think it's in a literal sense probably.

"Therefore, as it is written: 'Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord'" (1 Corinthians 1:31)

So boasting isn't all tht badd...you just gotta boast right! Like, i thot that was pretty amazing.

Keepin your sleep to a minimal...

It's really NOT good to sleep the extra hours, or as much as you can. Cuse say you do, for one day, you get soo much sleep and all the energy you need. The next day, you'll be restless, and roll around your bed, jus like i did. But again, tht's just me. From now on, I'm forcing myself to wake up, no matter what; just so i can get my minimal sleep. Or maybe, an explanation could be, tht I'm just a hard sleeper. or i mean..."hardly" a sleeper. yea, tht works.

This cycle just continues...on and on for me. Like, I'd be dead for one day, and alive for another...nd it alternates. Tht's the wonderful experience I'm getting rite now.

Being happy isn’t all about making yourself happy,

It’s about making other ppl who you love happy, I find.

You find most joy in that.

---/a best thing a friend would ask for, is your ability to understand them. Like, actually understand them.

What is love? We're not (We-are-not), for sure...

Only God is...which I'll never understand.

I dunno wut kinda dream i had (maybe i sorta do...), but when i woke up, I was maddd sweating. And i was in the basement. And yes, i sleep in the basement rite now.

---/I used to think that: In the future, if i fail in life...would everyone still treat me the same?

But i guess a better question would be: Would God? Well, i would think so...i mean, OFC He would.

The reason behind me thinking that was...I imagined myself to be some...iunno "bum" some day, i wondered how my life would be different from how it is now. Would ppl still recognize or achknowledge me for who I am. Will i still be the same "Conan" in front of everyone. Will i still be invited to the same ppl's house as i am now. Would i still be loved, like I am now.

So yea.

P.S. I don't plan on being a "bum".

Why you don't sit in the back rows (when u actually feel like listening):

- That's where ppl game and talk, so it's not exactly a good place if you actually wanna listen
- You can always see ppl in front of you game. And u'll stare at it, for the rest of the lecture.
- You can't hear questions asked by ppl in front of you. But ppl in the front can hear questions asked by you. (I don't think that's very fair...)
- It's harder to hear, see & ur less motivated to listen.

(You wouldn't have any of these problems if you were sitting at the front)



all i gotta say is, don't be late!...the lecture hall is small enough alreadi (200 ppl max). UOIT in general, is a small place, but not a small School.

Mr. lonely...

Somehow, I'm pulling through...

I got a 100% on an assignment that, i don't think i was supposed to get a 100% for.

And somehow, I'm doing well...in general.

I'm done all exams today. Thanks. =)

Went over to neighbors for chicken wings and french fry wedges, cuse i didn't have a dinner today. (they had 50 wings, and like a bucket of wedges, for 3 ppl!). They almost needed my help to finish all of it.

Thanks for the provisions Lord.

I thank You, God, for today.

Haha.

PRRAAISEE GODDD!!

Praise the Lord! My Grandma (Popo...) accepted Christ today!!!!

I'm too happy myself too...

But my parents were like crying...tears of joy.

For 80 years, it felt like we almost gave up hope on her (which wasn't exactly a good thing), but God did not.

Some bros/sisters of Christ came over to her house today, and she accepted Christ.

Amen.



P.S. I was tingling so much, my senses were like all over...can't describe the feeling, when i heard the news. How Great is out God.

Now, BOTH my Grandmas have salvation! Yay!

My parents said I'm allowed to go now...

respects.

---/I wish i could make a song for you.

Haiizzz

Urbana is...$700?! (CDN)

Man, my parents are good at makin me feel guilty....

Bus 162
Housing 160
Food 50
Program 395

U.S conversion (x 1.1)

Total $843.70

(the top was subisized cost included)

I wanted to prove my parents wrong...but in the end, they're ones that do quite the research. It's like they go so far, to not let me go.

I've always wanted to go tho...I always wanted to experience wut it was all about.



My parents keep asking me these guilt/challenging questions like:

"Do you even know why you're going"??

A very simple question.

But I was afraid to answer the question, because...partially, and i knew it was definitely part of the reason, was cause all my friends were going. that wouldn't be the ONLY reason. But for sure, I know that would definitely have contributed to it, and been part of my motivation to go. Cuse i know, if none of my friends went...i definitely would not be as hyped to go. I would maybe still wanna go...but havin friends there would be nice.
I know to go there isn't just a "chill" time and "bonding" time with friends; Altho there's time for that. But i DO know the purpose of this event. And i know why im going. I know I will "benefit" and take something away from it in the end. I DO have my own reasons for going. But ofc, it's always good to know ppl that are going also.

Like, u see, i didn't want to tell my parents that. Cuse i ultimately already knew the result & consequence after doing so.

And knowing me...i mumbled my way through...like i didn't know what i was saying. One of those times where i lack all confidence.

I really wanted to experience this...it might be once in a lifetime? There's only so long, that i get to be in university. I mean, you only get to be in uni once, rite? You can't back and experience it again. Urbana, could happen "once" in your university life (most likely). And it is targeted TOWARDS those in university from across the nations.

Opp, I lied...

I keep hearing keyboard-piano sounding music from the bottom of my room (lower floor), and I get so tempted.

My parents wouldn't let me bring a keyboard of my own. And i wanted to get acqainted, or get to know some other "music buddies" in this uni. Somethin we all share in common. But what i was most tempted of all, was to just join them, and show them...what i was made of.

That was a HUGE temptation. I just felt like going down there, and just be like..."Hey, let's JAM!"

But they drink and smoke weed, so....

This blog is dead.

For now...

Blogger no more...

So i removed this off my msn name. It won't be displayed publicly anymore.

cuse i realized, I'm doing it for the wrong reasons now.

And rite now, Ppl don't need to see this. It's not even exactly a good witness to anyone. Why am i putting this stuff up for ppl to see. These are my thoughts. And they're not always "good".

Before, I wanted to blog about spirituallity and encouragement so that people could read it, would be encouraged and really see wut it's all about. To see where all my encouragement comes from. I was suppose to witness to ppl, but rite now...what is it. It's literally a place for my emotions...and that is NOT a good way to witness for ppl. For the ppl who read it, it'll just be like another one of those blogs...

I'm pissed. How ironic isn't it...

Worst day for me...

It's not fair.

I'll learn someday...but not today.

---/Side note: Our toilet overflowed today, and flooded my side of the room. But i didn't have it bad....

Angry Angry appetite...(don't really know how that makes sense)

Sometimes, anger is something you just gotta...learn how to control.

When in doubt, don't get angry.

Also, b4 u feel like it, understand the other person. See from his perspective. See from His eyes. Stand in His shoes. U gotta BE him. If it's not a person, there's no point of getting angry (actually...srry, gave it a little thot, and that might not be entirely true).

Ppl say this a lot, but "When does getting angry solve anythin..."

or "Where does anger always lead to..."

So b4 you/I get angry, it's good to consider the consequences before you do it. And most important of all, know wut and why ur angry...?

i just always think of it as...it's never the end of the world. Unless it really is. Or, your not gonna die. Things can be reversed (most of the time?), but not always ofc. there's always a solution. Nothing can possibly be tht terrible...i just think of it that way. Look ahead. Just know that this stuff will never stay with you forever. So why not just forget it now, since u are gunna, anewayz.

pretty stupid emotion if u ask me. But God gets angry, i don't get why it exists...this emotion. Why'd He create it, where even God Himself....possesses it.

I've always kinda wondered God. But i kinda know an answer to it already...

P.S. srry this was kinda rushed...i'll come back to it later.

---/Altho, it Is understood that...you need to express point across. There's gotta be...a less aggressive way in doing so. I know, emotions (like anger) are used to express yourself effectively. But how do you do it without hurting others, beef-ing, or leavin some kinda tension behind.

I just have to somehow learn to like studying...reading...and learning.

---/the mention of "independence" to my dad today, stimulated something in his emotional nerves. It was so uncalled for.

You know, pictures always enrich/color-coat the way ppl see things. Like people always seem to be having so much fun...than they really actually are. But an alternate reason, could be that...maybe i'm just wishing i was there. And because i wasn't there to 'experience' it with them, it makes me feel like they're having so much fun. But I wasn't part of that fun tho, so how would i know? Because it really just shows you...wut you "missed out" (regardless if it was a good or bad time), when you possibly/potentially could've been there. That's what i think.

I go like...whoa there havin so much fun. But then i look back, i've been there, done that, with these ppl b4. It wasn't THAT fun. The only difference would be, without me. That might make a BIG difference tho, who knows.

---/At Uoit, i don't take any pics at all there, cuse there are NO pics to take. As in, nothing much in UOIT, would be worth taking. You don't really..."do stuff" there. Unless you count studyin as one...

---/I've been really interested in Catholicism lately.

Whenever i get nervous...i start offending ppl. I just noticed that. (ok, that might be a lie...bout me just noticing it.)

but I believe the reason behind it, is cuse...[in "Conan-mode", srry, tht's wut i call it...] i often don't know what to say or respond to something (it's like my brain's not there anymore, or i lost it somehow...), and a lot of crap ends up coming straight out of that mouth of mine. which can...and somewhat has b4...costed friendships.


and everytime after i say it...i feel like a ******** (srry bout the language.)

I guess I DID get to see some ppl today...glad i was able to make it to english side.

But there were just soo many ppl...man, and i had to leave right away too.

Anewayz, Chem midterm coming up this Tuesday. Sucks like a...fiddlestick.

---/Today, at junior church worship, i got so embarassed...

cuse i forgot how to play the doxology...and one of the aunties were like: "You have to practice ahead of time...*shakes head*...".

And yea...i got killed by guilt, at the moment.

---/at some point, i think im gonna forget how to play the piano...or how to bang a drum. The way i used to play it ofc. But tht's how ppl lose their over uni...i think? well, if they dun pursue it...

---/hold me, love me, comfort me...

I love it.

i wanna overcome the effect that time has on us...

Hope this is sumthin i won't ever forget.

---/I can't sleep as well as i used to b4...too many thoughts on my mind.

I've been waking up to, and staring at my laptop screen for the past weeks/months hoping to see these ppl. And it flops...all the things i look forward to always flop.

I have to wait TWO mre friggin months. Don't shoot me...but hit me now...

I dunno why, but I always get nervous…whenever my parents are around. I just…don’t know what to say, sometimes. In a way…it’s hard to satisfy them. Like’s it been a while since I’ve seen them, I wanted to start off with a happy note…but it just never changes.

Like i totally don’t act like the way I am…when they’re totally around. I change…when I see them, in not such a good way…as in a I get nervous, c-cuse it’s my parents. I don't even know why i do. I don’t seem to know what I should do or say most of the time.

Most of the things they have to say is "im never on top of things, and that im clueless, and not sure what im doing." But the reason for most of that is because THEY’re around, no offense (cuse i kinda get panic-y, as in nervous panic). And I know…majority of you already know me as a clueless person already. But in front of my parents…I dun even no wut im doing anymore (not tht I ever did, but it gets worse) my mind goes blank.

weird isn't it? Who on earth shares that kinda relationship with their parents? How often do ppl have a relationship like tht...with their parents.

---/but I still, at times get encouragements...but u no, it's here and there...some aren't too sincere, i just think. Cuse most of the time, it's just to make me feel better so i won't hate them or anythin lol. But i can see...and understand, sort of. They're parents.

But one thing I'm still sure of; they love me. Just what parents do best.

I definitely can never forget how it feels like...to be at home. The first thing my dad did when we got home...was teach me how to solve a rubix cube.

---/Like father, like son. I must admit, I am very much like my dad...in many ways.

We're hated...but loved. Don't exactly expect anyone to understand that. This IS for myself...not realli anyone else.

And btw, i don't literally mean it in tht sense...

I guess there's always...Next time?

Mannn, how cud it get any worse. I missed colluni. (How does it always end up like this...)

And now, I'm not allowed to go to Pauline's...there's always a very "GOOD" reason for it. One i can't ever reason with.

Apparently, it's a "thanksgiving get-together" for all families on Sunday...so yea, family first. Friends second. Tht's always the rule...well, that does sound like it makes sense.

haha, anewayz, I'm sure they'd understand...

who stays? on a weekend...a Thanksgiving weekend!

I'm always glad for one thing...

none of us have drifted apart from You yet...

whether it by ACF, CCF, C4C, Campus church, etc.

Thank God for uni fellowships. You prepare and provide indeed.

It's off to a good start. I pray that you would just maintain it, and be with us.

=)

Another one gone by...

It is sucking for Conan...because he has a midterm a day b4 the weekend, and one after the weekend.

I can forget about chillage.

Most likely won't go to colluni today. I get off at 9:00pm.

Cmon...this is thanksgiving yo, give us some slack.

I've discovered something...

You can't get used to the fact of 'having pleasure'...if you really want to serve or care about other ppl.

it's hard actually...i can't do it myself yet. Everyone wants 'pleasure', in any possible way (nd yes, i bet u guys are gunna say sumthin...not gunna expand.)

But i jus think that...we got to learn how to control that...? that urge, to satisfy yourself instead of others.

Even tho if u say..."I love you, I'll care for you, I'll be your best friend my entire life", your satisfying yourself, because you just want the other person to do the same to you.

So we gotta jus learn...to love unconditionally...just like God. But i guess, that's why we're human? Not sure if tht might even be possible for us. But always possible to strive i guess...

---/The following might be just repetitive stuff, cuse i was just trying to organize that thought down, i thought it was pretty important. I like to record stuff like this down:

When you're always 'use to' serving yourself, how then would u serve others. Like, you do only what YOU like, never thot bout what the other person liked.

Not saying you can't "like to do something". But, i guess u gotta control it? put a lid on it.

Your pleasures shouldn't overtake you.

When other ppl's matter...your's won't. When YOUR 'pleasure' matters, then others won't.

Not sure if you see what im saying.

Like, it's always good to minimize all the benefits, the enjoyment, to yourself.

From what i see, Ppl that are selfless (or are close to it), don't care about their own pleasures...but care about others'.

Like even when u say...i want to care for this person (even at times, when u say wanna pray for this person), it'll become more like a duty, or more like a satisfaction, or an exchange in friendship. You won't REALLY care about that person. You care...only cuse you want him/her to care for you back. That's the only reason we care & love nowadayz, am i rite?

(srry, I'm feelin purple...)

jus a collection of thots, dun feel like organizing it:

sometimes, unorganized thots, are just better expressed....



Being popular isn't exactly a good thing.

that's when the real test starts...

And i wouldn't 'try myself'...if i wasn't prepared.

---/the more friends you have...the more ppl u have to satisfy...

and the more u have to satisfy yourself in front of ppl...

and the more you care about WHO YOU ARE...in front of other ppl.

having TOO many friends isn't always the best. Because it is harder to control...the right friends to make.

---/this used to be more of a spiritual blog, for only "spiritual partners"...i dun realli no how else to put it. Not tryina offned anyone. But all of sudden, i feel uncomfortable just bloggin about anything i want now...to be honest.

i used to be really comfortable bloggin here...

altho, yes, it's true...i do post it up on my msn display name...but i expect certain ppl to read it. Not everybody. Ppl who take their time cuse they're jus interested in finding out. It was meant for them to discover themselves. I'll be really honest, it wasn't meant for EVERY single person to read...i gotta admit. And...i usually don't set up tht other stuff that might prevent ppl from doing so.

---/As i said b4...my blogs are quite blunt. I say wutever i want, i don't hide stuff here.

I have no idea wut i just said...after reading it again...here. I dunno if anyone else will.

that's the most messed up blogger post ever made..

I pray...for better memory.

Also, seein my boiz...nd gurlz, after today.

Love isn't proud right...

Besides, whenever you become proud...I find that it never actually is the way you think it is. Or it doesn't end up the way you expect it. Best not to "over-rate" yourself.


---/MIDTERM #1...complete.

now, 4 more.

But that was the longest lecture period in my life.

Why do we blog...

personally, i use it to keep "accountability" or keep in touch, with ppl...that I don't exactly "keep in touch" with anymore. I can always see how they're doin and all...

I never imagined blogging...to be...a trend? a fad? iunno wut u call it. somethin popular to do, like fb or sumthin.

I used to be made fun of for bloggin...cuse whenever i did, ppl would be like "wut u bloggin about?!?..." and then they'd find out that it'd be aobut "christian stuff"...spiritual life" or wutever. and P.S., I used to have do all my bloggin' in the library...cuse tht's the only place i could do it. It was blocked at home LOL. But now, I have the freedom to blog whenever i want.

Anewayz...I think this is a pretty useful "tool"? i guess...to keep accountability. Never thot, that it would become sumthin tht ppl would jus "start" doing, cuse everyone else is doing it.

Anewayz, Peaccee guys...i gotta do some mre studyin, as i haven't really yet. My midterm is tmr.

I've been wearing my Didomi shirt for 5 days in a row now. Kinda nasty isn't it. Don't worry, i shower still.

Wut can i say...since i can no longer be in dido, I'll wear it with me. But seriously, I ran out of clean clothes...and that's the only thing that warms me...jus like Dido. LOL

Sunday evening...

Why do we read the Bible? Cuse God loves us. Why do we pray? Cuse God loves us. Not because we want Him to, it's cuse He already has. We do it not to earn anything out of it, but because we wanna know more about this God because of the grace He's given us. Naturally, when someone loves us...the last thing we want to do...is NOT love them back. It only makes sense. Who's first instinct would not be to love one...that has first loved you.

I learned three things today, i think it's a bit random, but it's ok:

1) When you have a sexual relationship with someone, your like an animal. Cuse animals do not have relationships. They don't communicate, they just do it.

2) It's ok to feel guilty as a christian when you've done wrong, or when temptation has overcome you. That's a good sign. It means the Holy Spirit is still working in you. Better to feel bad, than to not feel bad at all. When it doesn't bother you...that's when you've gotta be worried, if u even can be.

3) When we spend time with God, He loves us. When we don't spend time with God, He loves us.


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4) When temptation wins over us, and ppl see it...we feel like hypocrites, don't we? We feel so down and depressed...it just sucks, like crap. ummm, I actually don't realli have a solution for tht...doesn't mean there isn't one. But i guess you can always rmb, that His grace is always sufficient and enough for us. When we screw up...God still always loves us back.

5) Instead of going, "oh, I'm so sorry, i'm so sorry for sinning...now i have to get this burden off, and repent myself". You should go "Thank you God, for your grace...for the love of Jesus Christ who died for us".

But grace is a free ticket to sin, it should be more like the other way around. When someone shows grace, you appreciate it...and give all you can back.

Phew...

Pheww..

Came back from Sunday mornin' church...first time going. The church i went to today, was called "Calvary Baptist Church"...and they provided "free" bus rides there, so im like, "ehhh, pretty cool." When i got there, received a "free" breakfast. (but obviously i didn't know bout this b4, so i couldn't have came there for tht...). So, I knew about it from a friend, of a friend, of a friend of mine...which is now my friend. And he invited me to "Campus Church" (my school fellowship), and later on invited me to this church. I must say, I'll probably be comin to this church from now on...every week i decide to stay in town. It's super convenient. You jus gotta wake up in time...which I almost failed to do today. I woke up 5 min b4 the bus was suppose to arrive, and got there 2 min b4 it actually did. I think i would've slept in...if someone didn't wake up. Think it was God. Cuse it was jus the perfect timing...suddenly felt an urge to wake up, like someone was pushingg me lol. Then i woke up, and came to church the clothes i slept in.

Today, I asked a question....

But first of all, today, we were talkin about: "Not giving in to people" (eg. peer pressure)". Because it is always so easy to. ESP me...I'm sure u guys no me, and wut a giving up/giving in/pushover person i am.

So I asked: "How do you come about doing so?" or in other words...how do u respond to that? Cuse all he was talking about the whole time was..."Don't give in", "Don't follow those that cause you to do wrong"...in my words, or mre like the Bible, it would be "Don't conform to others, But transform others into God's likeliness". Yeaa.
So i wanted to know exactly how he would go about doing that...tellin ppl "No" or standing up for what you believe in when you'd feel like you could "fit" in so much more. I actually don't have a problem with tht...fitting in? cause i alreadi don't LOL. It's just for me, it would be ruining a "relationship"? or "friendship"?...if you don't respond properly. Cuse they're bound to ask you "Why"...WHY don't you do the stuff, that we all do...or wut i'd recommend you to do.
You see...I have a big problem with that. Usually what ends up happening...is i say wrong thing. And i dun realli wanna start beef with nobody...so yea. I HATE offending ppl for the wrong reason...or when i don't intend to. but for me...it just happens, to everyone around me. I'm just a natural at that. I'm also someone....who cares too much bout friends? Like, friends...are important. But what i learned today, (or have alreadi learned, but reminded), was that we gotta put God first. Even if it kills the relationships we have on earth. And friends we have on earth, are cool nd all...but Jesus is an everlasting friend. I find that i get a lil too paranoid when i lose friends too...when really i haven't. Stupid me...sometimes.

And we ended off with him praying for me.

---/I finally conquered the distractions of Youtube, facebook-ing, hotmail, gmail, blogger (wait...im on it now), while I'm doing work. Like, I can finally finish one whole "thing" to completion...without, browsing anywhere else. I gotta say, I quite proud of myself.

that's the thing i like about blogger...

fr me at least.

you can see how ppl mature and grow...it's pretty cool.

It's accountability....despite the distance.

You can always...see wuts up with everyone. Altho u may not be able to talk to them that often...but it's just an excellent way to see...

How God's lead us the past years...

Sometimes, I just smile after reading blogs...because, i see the prosperity, the growth, the maturity...of those, who continuosly...just keep learning and experiencing the light of God's work.

I on the other hand...think i need a little work on that.

This is my perspective.

P.S. Pray that I read God's wrd more often

I realized...

that staying on weekends in such a bad thing...i feel like i get soo much more time, to do...anything. And just being able to sleep...without anything waking me up. And when waking up...feelin so refreshed. No one here..but myself.

The only thing that sucks....is that no matter wut, I'll always miss it at home. I feel lonely still.

So today...or more like, tonight...

I honestly had quite a new experience.

So it all started, when i was doing my Calc hw and studying for bio midterms which was coming up right after the weekends. And while working...in peace...somethin that sounded like music, caught my attention. Well, actually...it was music. Ppl were "jamming" some where, some part of the building in my res. And i...naturally, went to find out. I just followed the music...which led me down the stairs...and back to the same position i was b4, except 1 floor lower. And i realized, it was coming straight from beneath, where my room was. No wonder, i could feel vibration, under my foot. So anyhow...I knocked. The door opened...and everybody was drunk. And one goes "EYy, Wut'z UR name...", so then i tell them. After that, I couldn't leave. Cuse they didn't really let me. The moment i knocked on the door...i got myself into it. When this whole time..I was suppose to be studying my butt off, for midterm in 2 days. So...after an hour or so, I had to sneak out. Omgoodness...me of little experience. It's like...I've never seen someone drunk b4 or sumthin. I don't know why...drunk ppl always scare me...the way they're caused to be like when they're drunk...that's y i never wanna be drunk. Or ever drink.

But tht was lesson. I learned from it...and it's good sometimes to gain some experience...i know wut and wut not to avoid.

Christians are happier people. I'd like to think that.

We've got a reason to be.

Not sure wut im tryin to say...

But usually what i say...reflects, what i observe or think about lately.

The more i seek you...the more i find you,

The more i find you...the more i love you.

*sniffle...

I am so lonely=(...

I wish u were here.

This weekend...is going to be...plain...no wrd to describe it.

I feel SO awake rite now....I dunno why. I had 3 hrs. of sleep yesterday..cuse my roomate got bac drunk...wasn't sure what to do.

But...I'm gunna pass out rite now.

Also, won't be comin home on weekends for the first time. Midterm on Wed.

I lost a 4G memory stick yesterday...was really sad. But then...shook it off over night. And, i rmb it now again.

---/So I was reading revelations lately rite...but Bernard suggested that i read colossians. Since I told him that I wanted "encouragement" from the Bible about distraction/temptations/frustrations. So...I am going to start on that todua.