I dunno why, but I always get nervous…whenever my parents are around. I just…don’t know what to say, sometimes. In a way…it’s hard to satisfy them. Like’s it been a while since I’ve seen them, I wanted to start off with a happy note…but it just never changes.

Like i totally don’t act like the way I am…when they’re totally around. I change…when I see them, in not such a good way…as in a I get nervous, c-cuse it’s my parents. I don't even know why i do. I don’t seem to know what I should do or say most of the time.

Most of the things they have to say is "im never on top of things, and that im clueless, and not sure what im doing." But the reason for most of that is because THEY’re around, no offense (cuse i kinda get panic-y, as in nervous panic). And I know…majority of you already know me as a clueless person already. But in front of my parents…I dun even no wut im doing anymore (not tht I ever did, but it gets worse) my mind goes blank.

weird isn't it? Who on earth shares that kinda relationship with their parents? How often do ppl have a relationship like tht...with their parents.

---/but I still, at times get encouragements...but u no, it's here and there...some aren't too sincere, i just think. Cuse most of the time, it's just to make me feel better so i won't hate them or anythin lol. But i can see...and understand, sort of. They're parents.

But one thing I'm still sure of; they love me. Just what parents do best.