I've discovered something...

You can't get used to the fact of 'having pleasure'...if you really want to serve or care about other ppl.

it's hard actually...i can't do it myself yet. Everyone wants 'pleasure', in any possible way (nd yes, i bet u guys are gunna say sumthin...not gunna expand.)

But i jus think that...we got to learn how to control that...? that urge, to satisfy yourself instead of others.

Even tho if u say..."I love you, I'll care for you, I'll be your best friend my entire life", your satisfying yourself, because you just want the other person to do the same to you.

So we gotta jus learn...to love unconditionally...just like God. But i guess, that's why we're human? Not sure if tht might even be possible for us. But always possible to strive i guess...

---/The following might be just repetitive stuff, cuse i was just trying to organize that thought down, i thought it was pretty important. I like to record stuff like this down:

When you're always 'use to' serving yourself, how then would u serve others. Like, you do only what YOU like, never thot bout what the other person liked.

Not saying you can't "like to do something". But, i guess u gotta control it? put a lid on it.

Your pleasures shouldn't overtake you.

When other ppl's matter...your's won't. When YOUR 'pleasure' matters, then others won't.

Not sure if you see what im saying.

Like, it's always good to minimize all the benefits, the enjoyment, to yourself.

From what i see, Ppl that are selfless (or are close to it), don't care about their own pleasures...but care about others'.

Like even when u say...i want to care for this person (even at times, when u say wanna pray for this person), it'll become more like a duty, or more like a satisfaction, or an exchange in friendship. You won't REALLY care about that person. You care...only cuse you want him/her to care for you back. That's the only reason we care & love nowadayz, am i rite?

(srry, I'm feelin purple...)