UOIT visit...!

Got ma laptop!

It's an...IBM, lenovo system, ThinkPad® notebook.

so sick tho...wireless, all over entire campus, even outside. (Iunno if it's like for other universities, but i think that's pretty sick!)

Somethin even sick-er, is...we don't needa buy textbooks! Cuse it's all in the laptop (embedded in)! We just gotta study from the prof's notes and we're all good (says the experienced upper years).

The laptop basically has built-in everything: programs, softwares, lectures, etc... Not bad. I'm beginning to like this place. Plus, I got to familiarize myself with the campus even more today. Already feel like I'm from there.

By Going out a lot...

Benefits

- Was able to conquer a lot of my fears. (eg. used to be a real pansy. I was afraid to do anything. But now, not as much. A LOT less)

- Learned to become independent

- Became more aware & experienced with the world outside, I came to know what this "secular" world really meant.

- Improved my social, people, and interacting skills (also grew closer to God with the help of others)


The...Non-benefits

- Didn't spend enough time with family

- Family got pissed all the time

- Didn't do what I should've done around the house

Wut tickles my pickle...

You know what frustrates me the most? When I can't find something...cuse most of the time, I don't understand WHY I can't find it.

I don't wanna know I'm havin Alzheimer's already.

Question #4.

funny thing...jus rmbed a random fact. I didn't know this b4. Actually, I did...it just makes more sense now.

My question use to be...if God already knows our every move, our every choice we make, then wut is the point? He knows the beginning and the end of the story. So it's kinda like...He's just sitting here watching a movie, when He already knows the ending. What a spoiler! (And somehow, afterwards, it lead to me thinking that God didn't really give us much of a choice, cuse everything's already been set. He already knows it.)

Bern told me that: "Just cuse God knows what choice we're gunna make, doesn't mean we don't have the free will to make it. We are still in charge of our own motions/actions, He's not controlling us."

Which is quite true.

But as I'm typing this, I just realized...it really HASN'T answered my "question" yet (or at least, a part of it). Plus, after I look at Bern's answer, it seems like such an unreasonable, stupid question lol. Anywho, I'm goina ask him the rest the next time i see him again.



But wut a question to think about. That question baffled me long enough.



(hope u guys learned sumthin. If not...then...)

Some thoughtful truths...

Gr.9 - You guys are one of a kind. You guys are special. I've never seen any like u guys (as in fr gr.9s). You guys are the first Gr.9s to comfort me, instead of the other way around. You guys take initiative to encourage and life up the older grades (when it's usually more of our job to do that). You guys have welcomed me with open arms, and are ALWAYS positive! An enthusiastic bunch! =)

Gr.10 - I'm not even too sure how many of you guys there are, but from Coco-to-you guys: "You guy've gone a long way. Like, I saw some of you guys grow up...(lol even back in VBS)"

Gr.11 - Friendly & encouraging leaders as always

Gr.12 - My BOIZZ nd GIRLZZ, this is my graduation song...lol

Oh, nd A & B...

I forgot to tell you this, but I was actually planning to add it to the graduation song. Clearly, it failed...

"You guys offer up your house,
as caring brothers.
You guys are mad funny,
unlike, my mother (jks, in order for this to work)"

"We had great times of bonding,
You guys loved me oh so much.
All those jamming sessions,
You guys have nice musical touch."

"You guys have been the ultimate encourager,
and a leader for Christ.
You guys send me many emails,
reading them, feels so nice."

"Whenever I'm a rebel,
You take me in your home.
You give me rides everywhere,
wherever I roam."

"You guys call me up,
whenever you chillin'.
I'm so thankful,
You guys are always so thrillin'."

"Thank God,
for all He's done.
Through these years,
We've had so much fun."

I especially enjoyed NOT sleeping at your house...

*End





couldn't forget about you guys...

*Commitment*

May I continue to read Your word as I move in to a new place, new environment, and a new state. May I spread it...just as I would on a missions field. In fact, it's just another NEW missions field, as Bern would put it.

May I read the Bible every day, and may it speak to me.

(...and may this be a reminder, when I read it again in the future, a commitment I've made for Uni)

...am I wack or wut...

We're close & tight now...why can't we be close & tight forever??

Why does it have to work like that...y is it in us to be like that? ("Why am i askin so many questions?"...iunno)

It would seem like such a waste, hope im wrong, or hope my mind's jus wack.



"Hope God'll keep us all together, through the all and the 'whatevers'."

"I'll smile, and I'll laugh, and I'll forget about all that crap"

(stole from you Brian, thnx. I hope u share the same way too)

"I hope God'll keep me close to You."

More thinking...

I carried my Bible everywhere...and I never read it. Now I lost it.

Why is that we value things only AFTER it is no longer available to us?

(i can answer that actually. It's just a feeling. When you no longer have something that you used to have; you just naturally, want it back. You'll wish you made better use of it during the time it was still with you. Even if you get it back, you may/or may not still value it as much. But one things for sure, when you lose something, it breaks your heart that you didn't take care of it better or value it enough. When u DON'T have somethin > When you have somethin [the amount of worry & value])

It's not really a good sign. Bible = God's words = How God wants me to live life. So...I don't value what God has to tell me. That sucks. This situation/state that I'm in sucks. What do I value...realli?

just getting myself to think a bit...

answer to that...

I think i no what it is. I wish i could've been closer to each and every didomite. That's what I felt missing, during the last nite.

During the 3 years of Didomi, I could've taken the opportunity to know Didomi a little better, but I didn't. I feel quite dissappionted in myself. A little ashamed.

It wasn't enough. When I left, I think that's the reason I didn't, i guess tear, or show much emotions. It was because, you can say "I didn't value enough, what I was leaving" (altho, for me, I'll never actually leave...I'm seeing everybody next Sunday, and then the Sunday after that, and so on...)

u no that feelin where "you could've done a lil bit better"? Well, I'm feelin like "I could've done a LOT better."

This is truly what I feel...

How else can I say this...

Yesterday, was the last Dido of my life (...as a didomite).

The night did feel sorta "special". And it was well organized for us, like i could tell everyone put in a lot of work for us. But why, is this it?

It just ended. Iunno. Just like that. Don't really know what else I expected. But my last moments of Dido just passed by, like that.

In terms of tears, it wasn't too much...(except for Abbie, i guess...).

for me, i still won't be forgeting any of those ppl

And again, I'll be coming back often enough anyways.

But...It sorta felt like, I was still missing something. Felt empty in a way.

*

I feel pretty bad now...I dun want have a bad impression on him already. Just when he started to like it here.

Always more to learn...

Don't ever underestimate or look down on a task God has give you.

i hope tht He'll form some tight bonds with ppl in Dido...other than all the gr.12's. I hope He'll still come to Dido even without me.