I really want to remain...the calmest, and un-easily-angered person I always thought i was....someone who never gets madd, no matter what. I've tried that before once...and I've come to a conclusion. It's not possible. (for me at least) cuse...
1) sometimes, things just need to be expressed. Your message must get across.
2) This'll probably only make sense to me: but I'm afraid that being "calm & friendly" will kill my social skills. I'm scared tht...i won't know how to talk back to ppl later on in the future lol, if i don't develop that habit of "talking back" (this probably makes no sense to anyone). I dun wanna be tht kinda person. Someone who keeps avoiding things, tryina run away from conflicts and fights. Being the person, who ends a "quarrel" just so it doesn't have to build up. I'm starting to become annoyed by the thought of tht. I'm afraid...of change, or tht I'll change. When I'm the one to end a fight...I always feel like the loser. It feels so unsatisfying. It's so unsatisfying....to know that the other person thinks you have nothing more to say, cuse they're right. When u actually do....but u just wanna let the person know SO BADLY tht all u want...is to fight no more (but u can't, cuse tht wud jus defeat the purpose). Cuse u no tht the conversations is not gonna go anywhere...nd u have OTHER stuff to do, besides arguing lol.
But u'll need those skills out there. The ability to "talk back" to ppl. No one wants a quiet guy, who doesn't really know how to talk, or logically argue bout stuff. No one likes a guy who agrees with EVERYTHING. those ppl usually aren't realli too interesting, if u no wut i mean. Nd wut are friends for...to give u HONEst feedback about stuff. If they're always jus gonna agree...u no, does it make a difference whether they're here or not (srry, i sound kinda harsh). But yeaa, tht's ultimately what im afraid of. Being a someone...tht'll turn out like tht.
I no it sounds like i thought all this out really deep, but i've kinda always felt tht way.
Anewayz, back to "anger",
I was told...anger is usually a bad thing (leads to sin). The only exception is when u turn anger against sin. Jesus got angry too...at the temples. So did God...when ppl disobeyed Him. Usually when I'm angry, it's not for the right reason, so I'm still tryina cut it down. U guys probably rarely see me angry...but, im not sure if u want to. LOL jks. I usually don't get angry at "ppl" too much, I usually get angry at "things".
heh...jus a thought. jus speakin some truth tht i always thought...
P.S. I'm not angry or anything...I'm actually in a pretty good mood today. But i reflected back...nd kinda evaluated myself. iunno lol
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