Again.

I think I'm scared of "people".
But at the same time, I like bein around "people".

By being afraid of people, i mean i get un-normally nervous around a human. Because they cause me to start over-thinking, no matter who it is. It's the anticipation of not knowing what im going to say, or what will happen next, in this time with a person. This, im working on. (It's probably so annoying that i keep talkin bout the same things, the same problems, but...AGAin, this might be annoying (again), but i just speak my mind really). Again and again, i keep stressing to myself, "humans" aren't important, they don't even matter at all...compared to God that is.

But, i like having people around me, because anything is better than being alone. I always find joy, no matter what usually, if im with ppl (most people).

So i think i experience "joy" and "fear" at the same time.

It's true tho, i have "People-phobia".

--//I'ts true, when you find out ppl read your blog, it changes your whole motivation in blogging by a lot, for sure,