Women, Again.

I don't like to admit it, But hot girls are my weakness.

Whatever you call it. Intimidation. Nervousness. Confusion. Uncontrolled. It's all there when conditions are right. Earthly desires always get the best of me. Am i that weak? Or am I...me.

I really HATE it when I'm captivated by a girl. Losing all I am in front of her. No longer thinking for myself, or thinking "like" myself. I hate having to be defeated every time.

It can also be called a distraction/interference with that of my normal behavior. It really doesn't matter who, boiling down to it. As long as it's someone who I care my impression affects.

One thing I always tell myself, (note: "tell myself" only), is that why would anything earthly be important to me, if I got God? God created these things. Why not be attracted to the creator instead? How would I benefit ultimately from pleasing these earthly beings, after the end of everything. We all know, it doesn't matter in the end. So whyy...DOES it matter! (By that, I'm saying it matters to us human beings, since we're human. But that's not exactly an excuse.). Is our faith in the Lord not strong enough? Do we not believe His power? His beauty? His Sovereignty? Why else would we push away One with such GREATness for something that will never EVER matter when it all comes down to it.

I don't understand why we wouldn't rely, trust in God with all our hearts, if we really believed Him for who He is. I dunno...follow me?

And I used to, haha, always blame God...for making all these things, making it so HARd for us.

But James 1:13-15

"When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; ¹⁴but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. ¹⁵Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death."

--//Just as a side note: I've been thinking and noticing...that people always tend to talk with the interesting, fun-going, comfortable, easy-to-get-along with guys (or girls). But for the socially awkward, the uncomfortable, the socially slower ones...no one ever approaches them.

I don't want to be like that...I try really hard to not be like that. Please give me an understanding heart to not be like that, and in fact approach more people (not selectively). Be a welcomer, an encourager, a comforter. Sounds like a challenge.

I know, I know, there just people you DON't wanna be around with sometimes. e.g. Selfish people, cuse they're annoying.

But it's such a challenge to include them also...at least for me. It's like how can you provide warmth and comfort to them, when in the back of your mind, your as annoyed as heck. I need You, Lord Jesus, to change that. And I pray for everyone as well, in the community of our church.