To sum it up, I'm not very happy with my performance. I haven't been happy with it since...about when I reached Grade 11 in High school (could've been before too).

I feel like I don't know how to use the brain that God gave me, properly.

It's like a stage, where it's been happening. Maybe I had my own 'stupidity' before, but nowadays, I have a whole level of stupidness. Also...a whole new level of laziness, which may explain why it leads to stupidness at times. They DO link together actually. Surprisingly, or NOT too surprisingly to some people.