Observations of the nite...

sometimes...the only source of discouragement...comes from myself.

Anewayz, I thought today went quite well. Had some really positive feedback...nd some great discussions going on. And i thought the skit went really well overall too...fr hardly any practicing, just the DRESS REHEARSAL lol.

But i don't think i truly understand yet...

...for sum reason, during discussion, i couldn't really word my questions properly. It was kinda like...I blanked out, nd didn't know what i was talking about any more. And when i don't know wut im talking about...how do i expect anyone else too?? Tht shows...tht I am still self-conscious. Tht I'm not exactly doing it for the right reason. If i were, I wouldn't even have tht kinda thought on my mind. I got distracted...again.

This is sumthin quite personal...im willing to share

I mean...PDP was greatt Nite Overall! I thought everything went really smoothly...when we put every thing in God's hands.

But tht little moment...tht fraction of the whole nite, I lost the whole meaning of it...all of a sudden.

Don't think i would make a good CGL...if i were ever to be one. I could improve on it...but yea, it'll take time...definitely.

All of a sudden...the questions i asked, didn't make sense to me. So it didn't come out exactly the way i wanted it to. once i dwell on a thought...it never comes out rite. I have ideas, that can't ever be expressed. What use is tht?

Sometimes, when i think other ppl are discouraging...i should step back, nd take a look at myself first. Tht's usually the main reason why...

This blogg might be kinda confusing...cuse ur probably seein a lot of "mixed" feelings. But it's just the stuff i thought i could improve on...and the stuff i thought went well on.

I'm still thankful that God put this all together...last minute, as always. nd everyone was so open, nd jus really shared wut wus on their mind. I mean, the comfort level of didomites are definitely...growing=)