BLOG #10: Props to those who read the whole thing..

Today....I did devos with my mom...for the first time, after a while. We decided to go through the 4 books of the gospel (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John), and then we had a longgg discussion bout certain parts of the passages (for details, read to the bottom). Afterwards, we prayed together, specifically for our Dad at Aruba...that he would just continue to work as a humble servant for God. It wus just a good sight, to see my Dad so happy with children...other than me (mebbe not lol). This experience...is definitely a life-changing experience for him, i can just see it=)

Anewayz, bac to quality time with my mom...so afterwards, we went out for lunch together, nd then had a game of table-tennis (clearly, we all know the end result of tht match..). After that, we got hungry again....and went to TNT. It felt jus like a date...except it was with my mom. Cuse we got to know each other better on another level. I rarely got to spend time like this...with either one of my parents. Nd i guess i sorta took advantage of this time...since my Dad wasn't here. Normally, this would be called "wasting time"... my Dad would say.

So the discussion I had with my mom:

Was from John 21:15 (jus one of the main discussion topics)

This passage talks about how Peter had denied Jesus 3 times, and Jesus was asking him again if Peter really loved Him (this happened after Jesus had resurrected from the dead). Then Jesus said:
"...when you were younger, you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and someone will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go."

(not too sure wut this passage meant, I'm bad with analogies)

But when Jesus said this, He was indicating that Peter was going to die for him....later on in the future, in the act of glorifying God.
So at this point I thought...How could Jesus just 'predict' that Peter would die for Him in the future (not questioning God's power...cuse He's all-knowing)? And why did he predict tht...wus it because Peter denied Jesus, nd this wus to make up fr it? I thought that at first...but afterwards, maybe Peter was just renewed after he would receive the holy spirit, and be the strongest man of God. Cuse later on...Peter too, died on the cross (except upside down)...for the sake of God/Jesus.
After this thought, the discussion kinda got off-topic (as always, cuse some body has to bring it off..nd it'z usually me). So suddenly, I started asking: "Is it even possible for any "thing" to be all-knowing??" If u think of it...tht would be kinda crazy, as in how can u imagine someone being all knowing? If u know all...y is there a 'now'? a present? when u can jus jump to the future. y is there a purpose, a point in life? why does God have to work through us....if in the end, He already knows. If He already knows who will follow Him, and who will not...why bother?

K i understand he wants us to have a free choice...but He alreadi KNOWs wut that choice is! am i rite?....so again, wut's the point.

Now im jus pasting the notes i jot down (some things may be repeated, actually i take tht back, everythin might be repeated):

- If God knew all, why is He letting stuff happen. If HE knows future results, why is there a "now". Y is God even "active"...always tryina change things..when it'z all the same in the end.
- Why is there even a purpose, a point in doing what HE does, working in our lives, when He knows end results.
- What's the wonder/joy/interest/fun/excitement of sumthin...when you already know the end of the story.
- In everything you do, you never know what to expect...and that's what keeps you interested in life, that anticipation...if u already knew everything tht is to happen...life must suck.
- God knew that He was creating an angel, that would eventually try to overthrow HIM..why?
- God knew...that He was creating a world, that would eventually become sinful...why?
- God also has human emotions (such as anger, jealousy, love), why'd he create 'stuff' tht would anger HIM.
- It's impossible for someone to be all-knowing...everything would be insane! I wouldn't wanna be all knowing

(these thoughts seemed more organized...when i discussed it verbally)

so the conclusion i jumped to: "Is God really all-knowing? and if He's not all-knowing...then HE can't be all-powerful?

i realize that all these questions revolve around the same thing...so if u could prob answer one of them, u could prob answer the rest. Some questions are pointless...literally, they don't have a "point". Or tht point goes round nd round...forever. But many ppl like asking pointless questions.

Everytime I ask these kinda questions...my parents always go: "You always ask...but u never seek the answer." actually tht's only one of my parents.
The other parent would go: "Don't ask these mo liu questions...u should think like tht when u do physics questions instead." (kinda obvious who..lol)

Sometimes when i ask these questions...I feel like I'm challenging christianity to whole other level. But I honestly hope...I can ask all these questions b4 these questions are asked to me lol. I am challenged day to day...about my faith, and sometimes I'm up for it...sometimes I'm not.

But i figured, I could keep questioning & questioning about things I'd probably never find the answers to. But GOD is someone we can't all understand, in fact no "one" can understand except for HIm. We are but..."beings" that God created. Tht's why...we leave that stuff to God...He'll take care of it...our job, is jus not to worry so much bout it.

So the message u guys wanna take home is: GOD is "someone" you can always find out more about...guaranteed.

P.S. I'm gonna apologize in advance for such ignorant questions...