Giving in...

I've been trying soo hardd...why do i feel so...forsaken...

I want to live tht life...tht 's pleasing to Him. But, I don't want to be something I'm not. Forcing myself to do stuff im not comfortable with...isn't the way to go. Because, I can't keep it up. At some point, you just feel like giving up...there's no motivation, no reason why you do it anymore. Unless you change.

Change is hard.

I wish it were easy, then there would be no "pretending" or "acting". Cuse it'z you. You're doing it out of your cheerful, giving heart.

I'm in need of some encouragement...