Hope this doesn't sound....too homo.

ok, i have been doing a self-study...a.k.a. a study on myself, it's like im so intrigued and interested about myself (sellff-consciouss personnnnnn). Actually, i have been doin it for a while, as in...i've been noticing myself...ever since..some time ago.



There's this thought in my head called "WHat if, i can't..."

But if "what if, i can't..." didn't exist, then there would be no knowledge what i can't, but only "what i can...".

but the fact that "what if, i can't..." is still there, in existence, there will be...an "I can't".

So even if u wish "u can"...there will always be room for "u can't". Because it exists. Your mind is curious, and plays tricks on you, sometimes. Even tho a part of your mind wants one, another part wants another. I believe there are different parts...of the mind. well, that's wut i think.

--//this kinda reminded me about...how there is only "light" in this world, because of God. And, there is really no such thing as darkness. But darkness, is really just "without light". Since it is just a word used to describe "no light". Cuse God IS the light of the world...and where there is no light, it is dark. "Darkness" does not exist, but only the absence of light...does.

I think about wording a sentence, and then i lose how i would write that sentence..because im too caught up in wording...one of my syndromes. one symptom of my attnetion disorder. Also, i end up becoming repetitive...

--// syndrome prt 2:

- If i can be like this sometimes...why can't i be like this "all the time". Vice versa.

- When another thought called "what im saying...it's stupid, ppl won't understand what im saying, people won't like it"; convo gets awkward and fails...