Journal entry #1 (...)

197th fact about me: I detest whenever i can talk on msn so well with ppl, but not in person (where i say nothin).

And when this happens...ur "msn friends" are hard to predict what they're thinking. Cuse, if you only talk to them on msn, but not in person, They might think...(wrds to describe it might by: "weird"..."awkward"..."strange"..."wut the heck"..."wut's the meaning of this"..."wut a puss-bag (lol)".)

This is what I broke it all down to. It's that knowledge. That knowledge that people are capable of thinking such things. That "knowledge" that you don't want to have. I wish i was an innocent, baby again. You can't believe in, or do something, that does not exist. Example of knowledge i DO NOT want, would be the knowledge of judging people. Also, the knowledge of self-consciousness, or the knowledge of being "able to lose confidence".

There can be "good", and "Bad" knowledge. It's good to know things...but not everything, is good to know. Knowledge seems like something we all want...and it is infinitely available. We're curious. But some things, I'm better off not knowing...or i wish i never knew.

So that's why when Adam & Eve ate the fruit from the "tree of the knowledge of Good & Evil", SIN came into the world. That's when sin gave birth...because they had KNOWLEDGE, knowledge of sin! They now knew what was bad (wut it meant to "sin") and what was good. And that's when the meaning of "death" came into play, when God told them, that they would die after they ate it. Because "the wages of sin is death."

Summary: Knowledge --> Sin --> Death

that's why, a while ago, i said "It's hard to trust ppl these days." It's because humans know so much more about each other now, through experience. We know what bad/evil/sinful things humans are campapble of. We're a sneaky generation.

E.g. A person can be maddd nice the first time you meet them. But in the present, when someone's nice, it doesn't mean he/she;s a good person. You don't know them...yet. It's hard to tell what people are like the first time you meet, cuse the world is capable of such sinful things nowardays. But because of that, no one trusts anybody. (btw, there is good in the world...)

Things aren't seen the way that it is anymore. Nothing seems llike the way it actually is. You'll never see what is "real" or what truly is "You".

This generation is nothing like a few generations back


From all this, ofc, I don't trust no one...I have bros and sis and Christ, that i would depend on and trust any time. It's just that...this can't apply to...the world in general.

Sorry...if this blog was a bit...ugghhh. or if i made anyone feel uncomfortable. Once again, just spoke exactly everything on my mind. Held nothing back.

i wonder if this is wut psychologists do...maybe tht cud be my new interest...other than the obvious...