To control one self...

My new goal as motivation is to train myself in: Self-control.

As humans, we lack control over worldly things...and, i guess, that is why we're human. So I want it to be my goal, my motivation, to be able to control myself...from stuff like:

i think the best way to sum it up is...to do what i know i should be doing, what is good, what is appropriate and right...instead of giving in to my body's physical wants.

This is just an illustration but, when you want to study for an exam., your body feels like it wants to relax, go on fb/mail/games/blogger (lol), sleep, eat, it's tired, do ANYTHING but study...

I want that strength and control, to maybe just fight that. Dangg, it's intense and hard!

But think about last generation (our parents). lol They had none of this?!? How'd they go through it? IT never crossed their mind! that's how. You can't be pulled away, or control yourself from something that doesn't exist. That's the whole solution/problem...but not like, we don't know that already. Whatever people say, I'd say we have it harder this generation...soo many distractions.

Fruit of the spirit is...Love, Joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and...SELF-control. I like that, particularly the last one.

I lack so much of it.

--//Another topic: As humans, i find that...no matter how hard we try to break the habit of "thinking bad bout people", there will be things you do NOT like. You can try to act like, you "like" and are "loving" to everything, but i guess, just face it; We're human. We're gonna have "hating" thoughts once in a while. You might not want to, but you will. That's what i believe.

Cause i tried it before. I start the day, going out, telling myself im going to be "all loving today". And that nothing can stop me from loving. I walk out...someone doesn't hold the door for me..."thanks, jerkface". In the middle of walking to school...see somebody i know...I try to meet eye contact with them, they rather pretend they don't know me and avoid that..."Who do you think u are...punk" lol iunno, something like that. And when i see that some people don't care about anything but themselves, i have an image of "annoyance, hating, dislikeness" in my head towards them. And a lot more, those were pretty poor examples i'd say. I just really can't help it, sometimes it feels like i can't control what my mind thinks. It's on its own, it has its own instinct. Like a separate part of my will.

Sure, your actions may not always show it, but i almost guarantee you'll think it.

Romans 7:15-20

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^{c]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[c]} For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it."