"BEING DIFFERENT" for the right reasons...

Everyone (almost everyone) innately wants to be different. It just depends how each person expresses it. As humans...there's just a part of us...that does NOT want to be the same as everyone else, you know that part I'm talkin about?

That's why there are people that "stand out" (or try to "stand out" at least). People who...show off. People who make a fool of themselves to be noticed. Why do our comments on facebook hafta be so...DIFFERENT? People who deliberately do something different from everybody else. Being...a christian...is being different from everybody else, different from the world (that IS an example, but besides the point).

I just realized I myself...hate being/doing/acting the same as everyone else. Small example is if all people says a certain few things, then I don't wanna say it. I think I've gone pretty extreme with this tho...to the point where when people ask "How are You, Conan?", I don't want to say "good", or "fine, thanks", or "nothing much", or evennn "tiireddd". Cuse EVERYBODY says it...and my innate desire feels such annoyance to use those words, that make me feel lame. So I usually end up trying to say something else, something from the usual norm that people would say...I try to tell people EXACtly how I'm doing...but it fails a lotta times, because I don't ever exactly remember...how i was doing. And it would be a lot to explain and get out in general. (Hence, sometimes why i have such trouble speaking).

When someone does a certain action first, I hate to follow after (clarification: This only applies, if we have a choice do whatever, like umm...playing guitar JUST because everyone else plays it. It doesn't apply when, the teacher tells us to draw something out, and I totally do something different from what is expected just because another student did the 'expected'.)

Point being tho, I hate doing something expected. I'd much more like to do something unexpected. Everyone (maybe not everyone) rathers to do something unexpected, than expected. Because the 'expected' is lame. There's no deviation from the pattern. You've conformed as part of a...white piece of paper' (i don't know, that was the best i could think of). You are not, say, the black dot of ink that one would notice right away. It's boring. So being different...is a huge aspect of us being humans. It's just how you show your difference. I think every human wants to be defined of who they are, they want to be special, they want to be noticed and NOT blend in. Attention and affection is part of it (that we need). So yea.

But in the end...I just came to a realizing thought while writing this blog...this whole "difference" thing...it's all outward. It's all shown to other men...and women. If there were no others around, i don't think we would be different, or try to be. Not ONLY because there is no one to be different from, but because there's no one watching...so what's the point...there's is none.

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So, how do you choose to live your path differently? There are many ways to be...'different'. And you have freewill to choose what you want. But, let's just give it here a look:

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2.

Who do we want to be different for?

--//Another note, whenever you are troubled:
1) Read the Bible.

2) Sleep on it...

It works!

--//I'm very interested in the feeling of "awkward", how is awkwardness produced in us? What is awkwardness. Well obviously, i definitely know how it feels to be awkward, but why does that feeling happen. Why can't we just pass it by, and think nothing of it? Maybe this might be a stupid question, but whatever man. What is the neural/emotion/mechanics/God-given trait..

"If you make things awkward, then it's awkward". Which just shows that things DON't hafta be awkward...unless you MAKE it that way. I...just repeated the quote exactly. Anywayss, so that means there must be a cause in our bodies or whatever for 'awkwardness', what is it?

I often ask about things I struggle with...*cough, not implying anything...