I will NOT (I will NOT)...Be afraid...♫

Sometimes I realize i can talk...a LOT, that I'm capable of that.

And sometimes, I'm just plain shy...

Sometimes I can interact with people REALLY well. REALLY get to know them.

And sometimes, I watch every single word i say, feeling helpless (i think i can describe it as that), maybe a little fear.

Sometimes I'm afraid

Sometimes I'm NOT afraid.

When I feel like talking, I don't think about it, it's like an adreneline, i don't even know, can't find the right description for it. But it just happens. Things just happen, and nothing about it. It's natural.

When I don't feel like talking, I am monitoring myself 100%. I literally think about..."What am i sayinnn??". Which concludes that nothing or 'almost nothing' is gonna come out of my mouth.

I wish to be consistent. Obviously more one, than the other. I personally, honestly, look at this as a skill. A skill with people. A skill to interact socially, and maybe eventually spiritually (since we are close enough) with people around me. It is a leader's skill. That's why I really want God to give me this. Or...maybe He already has, maybe I just gotta "Trust in Him".

I just felt like humming this song out right now.

I will not...(I will not) ♫

Be afraid...(Be afraid)♫

I will not...(I will not)♫

Be afraid...(Be afraid)♫

I will trust in you (I will trust in you [I will trust in You])♫

Gonna Muster every ounce of confidence I have...♫

And cannonball in to the waterr....♫

Gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have...♫

For You (God) I will...♫

It is not a christian song, I just thought I'd add God in there instead, cuse that's who I'm talking to, haha. I'm sure you guys all know that song anyways.