So.....Here my first post...
first of all, I wanna thank all of you who blog here(if ur reading this...THANK YOU).....cuse just reading your blogs.....have really made me reflect and learn much more from you guys through the past experiences and times you may have gone through, and because of that, I've started myself too. and I'm truly, deeply glad I started this blog. It really IS a great way to keep accountable and a way to know where we’re at with God. After reading other ppl’z blogs in the site, made me just think through a whole lot of things myself, especially my own relationship and bond with God. Just seeing and reading about all the experiences that people have just been having with God really made me reflect on my own walk and journey with Him. And also, that’s why I’ve decided to start blogging. I'll always be in the mood to read blogs....when im feelin sad, glad, mad, bad or shad, reading blogs actually cheer me up. iunno why.
This thought/topic came up in my head while reading Jenny’s blog, where she mentioned that she was somewhat distant and far away from God at times, maybe because she would be too preoccupied with school or what not or anything else important to her. She also mentioned that her faith was not always constantly as strong when she tried to talk to friends who were non-christians about Christ (this blog was probably a long time ago; so srry, if I’m kinda behind, I just read it now). And that made me think, I have a somewhat similar problem (I can sorta relate to that, since we go to the same school, nd I kinda understand how ppl are like there). For me, I’m actually not too afraid of spreading God’s word to non-christians. But instead, I have trouble expressing my ideas or points or whatever I really wanna say to people. Like…basically, I have bad communication skills. I’m often very happy and pumped to lead people to Christ, but my main problem is I’m not very good at expressing it. Another thing, is that I never knew ppl where so sensitive to the mention of christianity. Like.....ppl literally get scared when I talk to them bout God nd stuff(dunno if tht happens wit aneone else). I think it'z just me though. I wanna LEAD people to Christ, not SCARE them away (which I find i do a lot). I just feel like a failure sumtimes, if u no wut I mean.
If I can’t even talk normally to people in the first place to begin with, how am I supposed to pass on the message of God? On top of that, I’ve realized that I stutter way too much, and I’m not eloquent (hope thts right vocab) in speech.
Things that happen a lot are:
-I get misunderstood and misinterpreted a lot.
-Half the time, when I try to discuss with non-christians about Christianity, they think I’m trying to convert them. They literally ASK me if I'm tryina convert them. And sometimes, I can’t help but think that way too. But the truth is….I AM trying to convert them…in a sense. But I don’t exactly want them to think that way.
-And to be honest, some people sorta lose respect for me because of that. And I guess it'z part of the suffering you go through when you live for God's name. (Even though it would be no where close to how much suffering the followers and disciples of Jesus back then went though).
-Some people are actually REALLY surprised when they find out I’m Christian, and sometimes I think to myself, am I setting a good example for God? Am I a good witness to God? I thought people would have been able to tell that I was Christian, because of the way I act or behave, that in everything I do, I’d be glorifying God. But instead, they seemed more shocked and surprised (in a bad way) that I was a Christian.
- I have ideas that can’t be expressed/can't find the right words
prayer request: pray that the holy spirit would just speak through me in times when I try to evangelize to non-christians
(sorry, I've never written this much b4, I dun blame you, if u stop halfway and lose interest, But if u read this already, I guess it wasn't tht long)
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Hey conan~
dont be discouraged by your un-eloquent-ness. i think if you brought God into it, and asked Him to place His words into your mouth, things would flow. and ppl being intimidated and afraid...yeahh i can see why you'd be discouraged, too. hmmm...maybe its the way it gets brought up? the context? i unno...but i think ultimately, its you doing your part with sharing, and the rest is really up to God. You could also pray for the ppl you tried sharing Christ with, pray that God would soften their hearts and ears to your words and not get freaked out or shut it out. sometimes the right thing also happens to be the hardest thing to do, but you are definitely doing great in that you're not afraid to share with others about Christ!! keep it up =)
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